ChancesAre
Hi, I am Mika (pronounced Meeka) and was formerly Mike. This blog explores my journey from ordinary guy to a new outlook on myself, my sexuality, and life. It does not advocate slavery or encourage making rash, life-changing decisions. The blog is for ADULTS; if you are under the legal age in your area PLEASE LEAVE NOW. I never used to think of myself as a beta or a pathetic white boy. But by the beginning of 2019, I wasn't so sure. Was conversion to BBC a real thing? If so, why does it happen, why me, and what would it ultimately lead me to do? I tried to work these issues out on my own (and yes, it was scary). Then Daddy found me and began to guide, teach, train, and ultimately claim me. Now, I am His and want to please Him even more. I'm hoping to become erection free—permanently limp—so I can serve Daddy, Cock, and Men more fully. Toward this end, Daddy finally caged me (something I honestly did not look forward to, but now am so happy He did). It has deepened my submission, heightened my desire to serve Daddy, COCK, and Men, and even changed my psyche: I feel much less masculine, FAR more female, and have an abiding sense of security and peace. I'm also happy to chat with anyone who might have insights about my journey or is confronting issues similar to those I've experienced. All images are from the Web; none are my own.
Why Do White Boys Convert to Black?
Ever since I converted I've wondered why it happened and why so many other white boys are doing it too. I think part of the answer is IR porn: we watch it, love it, and it changes our mindset by exposing us to Black Men and BBC. But is IR porn the only reason we convert? Is it even the most important reason?
Some wonderful Black Men I've met have told me that from their perspective, we (white boys) actually WANT to be dominated by Black Men. These Men have told me that my own situation, confusion, and conversion aren't unusual; that the same things happen to a lot of white boys they've known—again, because ultimately we "want" it. We want to submit and surrender to BBC, and we want these things whether we're conscious of it or not; whether we're beautiful, frail and less "masculine" or not; whether we're gay or not.
Regardless of what kind of white boy we are, these Men think that we still—deep down and maybe unconsciously—want to be dominated by Black.
Is this really true? As I grapple with my own (happy) conversion, I'm starting to think it could be. I didn't go looking for this, but now that it's here I like it; and I don't think my experience is atypical. So...what are the implications of all this?
Is it true that at some level we really do want to become "a Black Man's gurl"? In the past I'd never have thought this even remotely plausible. But now I'm reconsidering so many things. So: why do white boys actually convert to Black? I'm still looking for answers. What do you think?